If we are able to take care of the expressions, only the expressions, nothing else, then more than 50% of the problem will be mitigated or reduced because it is the extraneous demeanour that drains your energy.  It has nothing to do with your academic qualification, the background, the ethnicity, the caste, the creed, the colour, the culture, nothing to do with that. It is your choice, but just becoming conscious of that is a better way to handle it.

You know that you are just predominantly, predisposed, biased and bigoted version of that demeaning disposition which creates the same pattern of the same experiences again and over again, and you are that victim of it because your body has memorised to express itself. If you are just a residue of that memory, then nothing could happen in your life. There is no possibility of any growth, but there is a possibility that lies on the other side of it and that is taking that level of slothfulness, sluggishness, inertia —taking it from there to the consciousness.