You are not the victim of the residual pattern of the past –the way you behaved in the past, most disgustingly, just the opposite of what we should have been. But now you are in the light of awareness and you are performing the biggest prayer through your actions under the times of your trial, under the times of ordeal and hardships. You are ready to persevere yourself and that's the biggest form of worship to the almighty because that's when you dissolve all the knotted version of yourself, and as you are dissolved –you are more sorted as a person. Henceforth, you are able to resolve all issues outside of you.